Nothing Natural

You know when you're sick, you feel the world's a dream... The dynamics of things turn just a little warped! In my case like today at work [yeah, I still made it to work], when everyone was running out and about, I just felt like sitting stationary... It was nice and sunny out, I would feel the chills... People would talk to me, and all I was thinking about was when to take my next round of pills... stuff like that!

I'm not that sick, but sick enough for me cuz I don't usually get sick... I guess being sick isn't so bad when it's controlled... In the early stages, given the medication being strong enough, the things you think about would probably be a little different than what you would normally think about... Like I said, it's like you're in a dreamy state [or the pre-delusional state, whichever!]... it's kinda nice! Then when you're really sick, you'll end up with a heavier dosage and your thoughts tend to get more surreal and elaborate [ooh ahh!]... I was just thinking today, if I knew that my days were numbered, then my outlook on life would probably be somewhat different... I wouldn't say too much cuz I considered my life is pretty simple already...

What if you have today but not tomorrow? And what if you have the next 4 hours, but not tonight? Life's a twister.

I was having the chills for the past 3 hours, but I'm finally warming up now. My hands aren't freezing anymore, and they feel soooo good... I'm happy.

Music: Brian Eno - Thursday Afternoon