Middlesex High School

I feel better now, after my 3hr nap from 4.30 to 7.30pm. I definitely need my iron pills again. Haven't been myself lately, but when am I? Gotta get my system back on track.

Today wasn't as productive as I would like it to be, kinda flew by without a sound, like the rest of my things. I sit and listen to the same songs, I watch the same people go by, I do the same things pretty much day in and day out... I kinda like it. Yeah, I'm happy. No thrills, but somehow gotta havta jot some of it down. Dunno why. Writing things down adds a bit of grey to my life. Kinda like grabbing words outta thin air and putting 'em together in a puzzle. It's challenging to me, I like it, most times.

I don't want to lose any more weight again. I think I'm thin enough already. Y'know I BS a lot, I'm all talk. I don't mean all the 'bad' stuff that I talk about. People believe what they want to believe and that's okay with me. Dunno, I only know my own truth and that's all it matters really. I look at my life, do I want to live for another 37 years? Not sure, and it's not like I'll have grandchildren. Though one really shouldn't 'live' for their grandchildren either, or anyone! Only live for yourself and the angels around you. You talk to fill the spaces inbetween.

The puzzle pieces are indecipherable. Don't really know what I'm doing but I'm doing it. Most people go through life not knowing, knowing. Kinda spooky yet kinda nice. I think at times it's better not to know. Life can be a real bitch and slaps you in the face, but she can be a dear friend, too. A pretty, dainty thing.