Instrumental

I've been listening to a lot of music in the evening lately, especially right before I fall asleep, and tonight is no egg-ception. I usually pop a CD in the portable and put my lil' earphones on, and drift off 'til the second I fall asleep. Dreeeamy...

Just now I was listening to my Night Music compilation in the dark, and it got me thinking about my ex - Gary. We were together for over 3 years. It was heaven, and it was hell. So while listening to this particular track in the dark, it got me thinking thinking about him. The so-called love, the mystery of it all... I cried and cried so much back then, heart was perforated and heart was torn. I kept telling myself to give my 110 percent, but only to realized that there's simply no such a thing...

But now when I think back, seems like I've forgotten about the 'love' that I had for him. I cannot remember why! I think I HAVE 'forgotten' about the love... Sad innit? I want to believe that I loved him... How can I be sure? If you believe you have loved a person so deeply, how can you ever forget?

I have dis-associated with him long ago. I want to say I loved him......... I've devoted a lot of time and energy into that relationship, but it seemed like it was never enough. Once I was thinking of putting our television [one of the few remaining items we had left] in the tub and filling it up with water, I didn't... and the next day, it was pawned for drug money. I gave it my best [to my knowledge at the time], but it was never enough... It takes two, not one! Many a times I told myself that things cannot get any worse, well, you can imagine what follows...

Anyway, this isn't meant to be a rag session... Y'know what? I've been through dark times, but I also know that there are many, many others that had it a whole lot worse than I did. I don't considered myself lucky, but blessed, and I would not have it any other way. Gary is a good person, he was just a bit lost and I was simply following a false dream. So here is the song, and it's a really lovely tune.

FALL IN LOVE WITH ME
Ease your lips into a velvet kiss
While I enfold you
Move your hands across this promised land
The seekers guided by the pole star
Say the words why don't you say the words
I have been waiting long to hear

Please fall in love with me...

Drift with me upon an endless sea
We are divine in the realm of these senses
Every move has been subterfuge
While we pretend that we really dont care
Lose your fear we may be strangers here
But I can feel we might be one

Please fall in love with me...

I hear the sound of moons falling
Surrender to this charm
I breeze across your soul darling
Deep eternity

Lost your mind well don't you think it's time
To swim away from the safety of these beaches
Trust the tides they know which way to flow
And don't you long to flow so far
Moved by waves we've never felt before
Till we are floating way out deep

Please fall in love with me
Please fall in love with me
Please... with me......

Text: Booth and the Bad Angel

Posted by robert at March 17, 2004 01:41 AM