Winds of Change

Many times I've reminded myself, that I would like not to fluctuate too much in my life, things in general... Isn't that a comforting thought? Or that I'm just a really boring person. Not too fast, not too slow, not too sweet, not too bitter... nothing too hectic, nothing too laid back... Many changes occur in life, mine and yours, day in and day out, changes can be a very good things, and I try not to let it 'overwhelm' me too much... Trying not to anticipate changes on the outside, yet quietly trying to prepare myself for all things to come on the inside. What else can one do, right? Change is inevitable and constant. Change is the real time machine.

Back to what I was talking about, trying not to fluctuate and be 'still'... Lately I've been thinking thinking - so while I'm doing just that, every thing and every one else around me are moving onward, I feel a bit like that I'm 'lagging' behind, sort of! Theoretically! At one point, that's how I felt last week... People around me were moving on and advancing, all the while I was staying put, being the same person that I've always been... Sorta like sitting still, floating inside a vaccum, while all other else going on with their daily business....

May it be psychological or an air pocket in my brain, but the motion [or lack of] seems true enough at times. Whatever it is and however it may be, I think we all go through it... a byproduct of time. The winds of change, no matter how grand or how minute, one can't escape. You can go with the flow or against it with all your might, and an inaction is still an action.