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New Year Wish

Left 5 million people homeless, 121,000 deaths and counting, the tsunami left a devastating trail of sadness and sorrow all over the world this December. Alec always gives every chance he gets. If you can, give to the Red Cross this year, and make sure to give through your work if they'll match your contribution.

Sometimes life seems beyond our control, but in time, understanding will prevail. With all the joy and hurting in the world, my wish for every one a healthy and a happy self. See you all next year...

-Robert

Big Little Things / Many Thanks

When I got home from work today, a box was waiting for me behind the screen door. To my surprise, it was from Wayne!!! THANKS WAYNE!!! So nice of him and all this time he was telling me NOT to get him something for this holidays! Holy torpedos! I knew he was up to something! Also when I was checking my mail, I received a lovely handmade card [it's a beaut!!] from Homer! It's so fantastic!!. [Not to rub, I mean uh, boost your ego Homer, and may truth be told, it is one of the nicer cards that I've seen in a long while! Maybe it's the fact that the card was made from the heart!] I've also gotten stuff from other online friends before... music CDs from Stuart [non-blogger], Jeff and Sushil, and a DVD from Dr.P... I feel so blessed!

I guess I'm a bit overwhelmed! Seeing the individual's handwriting on a card or on a CD, hearing their voices over the phone, things like that are sorta like little 'gifts' that they leave behind. It's like taking a little glimpse or a sneak peek on who these people are. Very intimate. I think to myself: Wow, these people took the time to do all this for me, and seeing how they write and what they sound like for the first time, put a big big smile on my face! It's a total trip! I love this feeling... :-)

That's really all I want to say today. I feel extra special right now, and I'm glad that I finally took my time to express this. Thanks everybody very much. I can't tell you all enough.

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I wrote the above yesterday afternoon and now, it's Christmas eve! yey! Alec and I will be flying off to Seattle tomorrow and coming back next Thursday. Maybe this will be my last post for the year!?! Dunno! So Merry Christmas everybody and have a happy, safe and a healthy New Year to come. Take great care of yourself, and each other! HO HO HO!!

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Saw the shirt about a month ago, got it yesterday! woohooo! Going to Disneyland next week and am planning on wearing it!

K, just kidding. I'll wear my Vagitarian tee instead. No I won't. I dislike that place anyway. bleh! I picked this shirt [with fuzzy letterings, yum!] over K is for Karate Chop. Nothing beats porn I tell ya! N-O-T-H-I-N-G! Well... almost nothing!

Winds of Change

Many times I've reminded myself, that I would like not to fluctuate too much in my life, things in general... Isn't that a comforting thought? Or that I'm just a really boring person. Not too fast, not too slow, not too sweet, not too bitter... nothing too hectic, nothing too laid back... Many changes occur in life, mine and yours, day in and day out, changes can be a very good things, and I try not to let it 'overwhelm' me too much... Trying not to anticipate changes on the outside, yet quietly trying to prepare myself for all things to come on the inside. What else can one do, right? Change is inevitable and constant. Change is the real time machine.

Back to what I was talking about, trying not to fluctuate and be 'still'... Lately I've been thinking thinking - so while I'm doing just that, every thing and every one else around me are moving onward, I feel a bit like that I'm 'lagging' behind, sort of! Theoretically! At one point, that's how I felt last week... People around me were moving on and advancing, all the while I was staying put, being the same person that I've always been... Sorta like sitting still, floating inside a vaccum, while all other else going on with their daily business....

May it be psychological or an air pocket in my brain, but the motion [or lack of] seems true enough at times. Whatever it is and however it may be, I think we all go through it... a byproduct of time. The winds of change, no matter how grand or how minute, one can't escape. You can go with the flow or against it with all your might, and an inaction is still an action.

The Other Itzy Bitzy Spider

Most peeps prolly already know the trick on how to make the presidents on all your US dollar bills smile and frown... [An easy trick really, yet it really works!] I found out the trick from many years ago when I was reading the once Omni magazine... [and from that Klaus Sperber came up with his name Klaus Nomi!] Such a great rag!! The other day while I was watching Strangers With Candy, they were showing the exact same trick... haha!

Anyway, but this little 'discovery' I have not heard from anyone ever. Y'know all the 'webbing' that is all over your dollar bill? The little creature that's responsible for it, is actually hiding in the front top-right corner of the note!!! Yeup, that little critter's been sitting up there since day one! You prolly think that I'm nutz, but that's my theory!

Totally useless information, I know! heh!

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I looked and I looked, and what did I find? A self within a self. May wisdom guide you to your inner peace.

Dreamy Demons

A few of my friends/coworkers, Alec and I flew up to San Francisco for the long weekend. Got up there last Friday and did a bit of shopping, actually, I just window shopped... All 3 days I didn't buy a thing! Hard to believe eh? Anyway, shopping was MAD! Seemed like everyone from the city was out and about... But I had a lot of fun just being with them!

One afternoon Alec and I took off by ourselves and walked thru downtown SF. Life in contrast. Seeing all the high-end shops, merchandise and people looking all fabulous. I also saw quite a few homeless people all about that area, too, but I didn't give them any $$. There was a sea of people everywhere, quite overwhelming.

Then I saw this old lady with her little pully cart in one hand behind her, and a walking/pickup stick of sort in the other, scrounging for cans and bottles. Finally I caught up to her and I gave her some money from my pocket, and she then proceeded to rambled on and on in another language, all the while Alec and I were just walking away. I didn't know if she was screaming at me or thanking me... Nonetheless, made my day when I turned back and saw her standing there, still talking loudly - smiling. To me, I admired her for at least making something of herself. That day the city was chilly, but not as cold as I thought it would be.

I've been busy. I've been lazy, and everything in between and around. Dunno if it's the holiday month that's making me 'uninspired' and feeling a little down, or what. Maybe it's the 'what'. Am I ready for another year to come? Or even tomorrow? How does one get ready?

I wonder if that old lady is happy.