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For Love, For Jon, For Love?

This poster looks small here, but it's actually measures ruffly about 3' by 6' - It's huge but it's rolled up right now, plus a few others. More soon! Have a grrreat weekend everyone.

For Jon!

The Game of LIFE, Part II

Sometimes I think that life is like a dream... And when someone close to you dies, it's like your dream is being taken away, and in time, you start to rebuild it again, piece by piece... I never know how to react to death, but I think I know how I would feel... Helplessness, confused, and I would question the entity of life itself - again, but I never know what to do, and what to say. I will just be. Seems like everything is appropriate and not.

If life is such a beautiful thing, then is death the complete opposite? Stand by for life. What if everyone is given a certain amount of time to live, say 29,200 days, maybe then we won't regard life as profound as we do now, least not as significant. No? Our days are numbered, would you want to know how much time you have left? What if you have a terminal illness? I guess everything does have its pluses and minuses, and there are always more than 2 sides of every thing.

Life is a miraculous miracle and I believe that no one ever truly take theirs for granted. Fun-knee enough, it reminds me of our childhood game of Hide and Seek...... And if one happens to think about it, then the magic is gone.

From Sweet Daniel

Choose a band/artist and answer only in song TITLES by that band: Lush

Are you male or female:
Monochrome

Describe yourself:
Lovelife

How do some people feel about you:
I've Been Here Before

How do you feel about yourself:
Heavenly

Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend:
Ciao!

Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend:
Sweetness and Light

Describe where you want to be:
I'd Like to Walk Around in Your Mind

Describe what you want to be:
Light from a Dead Star

Describe how you live:
For Love

Describe how you love:
Nothing Natural

Share a few words of wisdom:
Tralala

Thanks mate!

What Do You Feel?

Does love ever die? Does it fade? Can it ever be replaced?

I thought I loved some things, but recently I realized that I don't feel it as strongly as I used to. It was bit of a downer. The moment I realized it, I felt solemn and a bit dumbstruck. It was an odd feeling indeed. I thot: "What happened?!?" Obviously my feelings have changed over time.

Maybe I'm just making room for something else.

We Stay Still

Getting grocery, doing laundry, paying bills, going to work, taking my medicine, the rain, the sunsets... Y'know, it's like nothing seems to matter anymore when knowing your loved ones are growing old, growing frail, towards the end of life...

My grandmother was in the hospital recently [she fainted] and ever since she got home, she's been really weak. My mom told me last night that grandma hasn't really been the same...

Today while on the freeway, I drove by downtown LA and saw a Chinese New Year parade on the bridge above, and then I wondered if she's going to make it to next year...

I've never met my grandfather, and she hasn't seen him for almost 70 years now - maybe soon, maybe not - only time will tell. I believe, and will always remember, that life [and beyond] is truly a miracle, and wherever/whatever she will be or become, someday, I'll be there, too... and I find that comforting.

The Nomi Song

He looked like an alien, but sang like a diva. Klaus Nomi was one of 1980's most profoundly bizarre entertainers—a New Wave cult figure who sang pop music like opera and brought opera to club audiences. His "look" was so strong audiences went wild before he even opened his mouth. On the verge of international fame as a singer, he instead became one of the first prominent artists to die of AIDS. Director Andrew Horn tells Nomi's remarkable story—one of fame, friendship, betrayal, and a performer so unique he is still unforgettable even twenty years after his death.

Text: Palm Pictures

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I know I've written about Nomi before... but I can't believe it, it's finally here! There've been talk about the movie a few years back, and now I'm gonna go see it this Friday! woohooo! Euphoria! When was the last time you were really, really excited about something? I'm like a kid again! Wait, I AM a kid! Look, a tribute! *...and I, got - a dress!*

I just watched the trailer [QT; 4.2MB] and it's been looping on my screen for the past 10 minutes [and I like the fact that the trailer was narrated by a child, heh!]! I was listening to Nomi's rendition of Der Nussbaum just this morning, and I was almost in tears. I felt really sad. Such triumph and tragedy in such a short time. As for the song Total Eclipse:

Last dance
Let the entire cast dance
Due to dismembered
Last dance
As we get atomized

...I just love that!! It's like in the very end, why not go out with a bang - and with style!! And so he did.

If you listen to 1 Nomi song, you prolly think "What the hell is this?!?" 2 songs, you'll really think that he's a friggin' oddball. 3 songs, confused and think "I still can't believe what I'm hearing!!" But if you keep listening, you'll eventually see the world that Nomi saw. I think for Nomi, it was more than about breaking boundaries, being different and avant-garde, or maybe performing just for the sake of eclecticism, it was about self-discovery, finding your true inner being and for once, and completely, not being afraid while doing it. Living the life!

"It's so simple!"

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TOTAL ECLIPSE
Big shots
Argue about what they've got
Making the planet so hot
Hot as a holocaust

Blow up
Everything's going to go up
Even if you don't show up
In your chemise Lacoste

Total eclipse, it's a total eclipse
It's a total eclipse of the sun
Welcome to this
With the total eclipse
Just a slip of your lips
And you're done

Fallout
Nobody left to crawl out
If someone calls we're all out
Turning into French fries

Last dance
Let the entire cast dance
Due to dismembered
Last dance
As we get atomized

Total eclipse, it's a total eclipse
It's a total eclipse of the sun
Welcome to this
With the total eclipse
Just a slip of your lips
And you're done

Total eclipse, it's a total eclipse
It's a total eclipse of the sun
Welcome to this
With the total eclipse
Just a slip of your lips
And you're done